sudden craving
for honeycomb...nom nom nom....horrible lack of appetite these past few days coz of the dengue virus hmmm think i dropped a few pounds this time plus the weather is hot did i mention scorching hot? well yah nearly died when my fever kept shooting up too i didn't have the typical symptoms tho' coz i was ok over the weekend and i thought it's the freaking hot weather which made me burn literally and not sleep properly but had a bout of chills and aches few days ago so when there's fever again within a period of 5 days the doc had to get a blood test done *ya thks jo i picked out the word chikungunya so easily when the doc told me it's negative*...now the only thing i can do is monitor the platelet level if it keeps dropping...hope not coz i'm feeling restless and lethargic as it is bed-bound *ahem*...mmm honeycomb me gotta go get me some...did i mention it's really hot today as well? plus there was this totally weird gale last night which scared poor butter!! anyway if you don't see me updating this blog you'll know why...30yrs seems like a prime age tsk tsk...
the prodigal son leaves
yet again...think it's been a year or less but the days don't really matter do they? soon we lose count of the year the month the date as they all fade into memories tucked behind the back of our mind...a pat on the shoulder a calling out of name and hefty bid of farewell...the familiar slight awkwardness during such scenes..no unnecessary words needed no tears choked back in restraint.. if i were any younger i'd shrug it off and laugh at the silliness of the way things have become..in fact i've just grown accustomed to seeing the solid teak wooden door of the room shut once again hmmm okay minus the rave music thumping in the background..this time it's all too quiet a different kind of soundlessness that echoes in the heart and did i feel a murmur then? should i? sometimes i wonder if the father was all too hasty in making a decision and if this decision was wrong even with the best of intentions..if the father had with his both hands created this future himself and asks if it was the wrong step..if he comprehends with foresight and would this not crush him as well...would his god be able to console him then? am i able to do anything...