i have a date with mountain!
farewell dinner for yisan @ my now fav restaurant!
group picture ~ the rose amongst the thorns...
had drinks at coffee club thereafter..instead of 'pek jau' like irene wanted T_T
i need some perspectives
i feel like this sometimes. wanting to blast out at the whole world. i had alot on my mind this morning whilst i walk my path. maybe i've been presumptuous and overly conceited at times without knowing. i felt like i didn't owe the world anything neither did i owe anyone an explanation. perhaps all this boils down to a willful nature and doggedness behaviour towards something i fail to comprehend. or simply won't let myself. but because of the hurt that will not give up now. and every so often i learned through the ways. every so often i needed to shut down. i needed to reconcile with myself for having been torn up inside. and i owe myself this. before i find reason to disregard the contemptuous judgment and see through it all. before the walls come up and i lose sense of rationality so that the sad is no longer heavy and the bitter is no longer down. all i need is to walk away. maybe i am a coward at heart. maybe i've learnt it's not enough being strong in life. and neither do i deserve second chances. pray tell. to redo the wrong and let myself in once more.
korean hot babe sighting!
irene...my partner in crime who got me started on the hongkong accent and her infamous open liner to any questions thrown to her "no! lemme think about it!"
celebrating kcy's b'day!
at starbucks again hahah didn't have much time to create a proper tumbler art =p can u see fumo's outline??
but this year thks to irene it's with ben10 too!!
a little sharing at cafe oriole ;)
nice coffee!
to llove unconditionally
is difficult. unless you're having to cut off all ties with that person and you could only wish him/her the best. because with love there tend to be expectations. with contact there is the hope of reciprocation of returning the smile of the occasional glance back at you of the awkwardness that looms over in which one of you tries to break the silence...then the heart breaks a little with the subtlety of each action you read into and your breath sinks in with every bit of vague indifference towards you then you start the self-doubt that you're never good enough.
which is why i stand firm by my advice. why should you put yourself in that position where you're vulnerable? and automatically start categorising each person into a 'criteria' checklist before anything anything is happening? but life is short and my theory is seriously flawed and crack full of contradictions. i find myself someone who will simply plunge head first into the deep end and worry about worrying later. so it's not like i become any more guarded myself.
on a separate note i read chesil beach by ian mcewan (recommended by my boss which i told him it's a more eloquent form of trashy novels haha) well basically it talks about the rigidity of a pair of newly weds who tries to consummate for the very first time on their wedding night in an era where sex was a forbidden topic. unimaginably perplexing a conversational piece nowadays but sadly tender. by highlighting how great a difference one small decision could have made how happiness was missed just in split seconds of the self giving in to pride or fear. and i don't believe in running away from it all of the fear of losing and karma beckoning. it's all in that one instant of life-defining moment that we miss out something important we could never have known but which our hearts ask later on. it's never too late to take a step back...seriously that's what all the movies say ;)
the best plain rice eva!
@ tom ton central mall =) dunno where my pic of the value set i had went..don't think i was particularly hungry but yes love the rice! they have omakase sushi lunch promo tues-fri only for $36 ^_^ gonna try plan for another 2hr lunch keke
irene brought this salt & vinegar kangaroo crackers to the ofc..cute rite?? that'll be a long wet french kiss =*
irene...my partner in crime who got me started on the hongkong accent and her infamous open liner to any questions thrown to her "no! lemme think about it!"
whatever makes me happy
